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not trying to be pretty. just trying to be real.

There is so much on my heart right now. I don't have any one thing in particular to say, yet so many, many things flying around worth saying.

Right now I am weary. Shiloh has come down with some sort of tummy bug and has been throwing up since this morning. We are at home for the day, which provides a welcome break for us and for my mother-in-law, (hereafter to be referred to Mama C), from steady weekend after weekend of working on her new house and old house (hereafter to be referred to as the condo) and not much free time for any of us. However, I have declared today TV and movie marathon and laundry catch up day, since the house is already clean from when we left yesterday to go work at the condo, and spend the night at Mama C's new house.

I am thankful for the free time to just be lazy, although I wish it allowed us more freedom to do stuff, or at least choose to do stuff. But I think that's the point, God slowed us down. I'm writing this post while watching some show with my man about the Redwood Forest. My head hurts, and I want to eat the pumpkin pie I just baked on the stove (thanks Publix) but I need some Cool Whip.

Here's what's on my mind...

Last night a very important business meeting took place that will affect our family financially (and other precious families) in a very significant way. We hoped last night would yield some financial relief, alas more meetings have to take place before that happens. It's okay, it is worth the wait, for the future is very bright for us in this. However, we are reaching a climax. We are over $100 overdrawn, our cell phones, gas and water are about to be cut off. Job opportunities Jason and I have followed up on are doors slamming in our faces. We are wondering what God is doing... we are waiting. We are not tired of the manna. We just look forward to leaving the desert.

Our house is scheduled for auction December 6th. The letter to request a deed in lieu passed the letter from the attorney advising of the foreclosure date last weekend. We hope for an offer before then. We changed realtors to try one last time to sell it which was full of drama in itself. More pressure to keep the house in immaculate condition is now applied (Lord help me). Shouldn't matter though since we're spending everyday of the week at the condo getting it ready for move in. Less time in the day for the kids to trash it.

So thankful to Mama C for the new carpet we're getting for upstairs in the condo - November 21st! And for all she does for us. Not sure where we'd be without her.

Thinking of all the stuff we have to sell to get some cash flow going. Need to come up with some plans for the kids rooms that won't cost much or anything at all. Good thing is we can sell a lot of what we have to buy other used stuff. Moving to a new space can be fun decorating wise, just wish we had more $$ to do it with.

I am feeling really overwhelmed when I think about trying to grow my blog. I am not trying to be pretty. I am not trying to be cute, or funny, or anything. I am just hoping to be me, and be loved. I DO want it to grow, but I can't do all that it takes to do that right now. I know the time will come and we'll be more settled, and I can take time to be more creative overall in my life... If you are reading this, I am glad that you're here. You give an ear to my ramblings, my voice when I am weary. I am happy, truly, in almost all things, in other things we really struggle. Thank you for listening to both. This season has taught us so much about being content in the moments each day gives us to laugh and be satisfied in the simple things. It's sustenance for the more taxing times that we have to face.

So I guess that's all for now. I really need to take care of this headache and check on my babies. And eat some pie. And get out of these jeans I've been in for three days. And fold some laundry.

Love y'all.