worship wednesday: Intimacy is calling me...

Worship Wednesday... Am I saying that this will be a regular thing? I don't know. But today, I feel like crawling in my Daddy God's arms and snuggling up, and letting Him comfort me and sing over me. 

I've been working so hard on this blog and my new etsy shop; it's my way of trying to find ways to be creative - which I need to do to thrive - and also find ways to support my family. I've been stuck to the sagging couch. I was up till 1 last night, and this morning before I knew it, I had sat down to write some emails and work on my blog design, and I looked up and it was 12. Couldn't believe it. My babies are still in their pajamas as I write, with Nutella smeared all over their cheeks, taking a nap in hopes for a trip to the park when we wake (my promise to Shiloh from my guilt :( ). I am trying so hard to find a way to help support the family, while taking care of my babies at home. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I only know what I can do today. All of it requires endless effort with questionable return. But I am thankful for those supporting me, believing in me and standing with me as I explore ways of creatively digging ourselves out of this financial hell that we're in. So many lessons being learned, so much simplicity to find, so much sown in prayer that we reap in faith. 

I say this to let you know why I need my Daddy God. When I'm in this place, I sense His great love. When I say everything fades, and I just crawl into His arms, that's what I mean. If you don't understand... think of the comfort you feel on a cold winter day, snuggled up by a fire with a hot cup of coffee, under your most comfortable blanket, and you think you could just stay there forever, would never want to leave... you feel safe, you feel warm, your needs are fully met, you are satisfied. You have to do nothing more than rest. Intimacy with Jesus is that and so much more. This is my quiet place with God. To come away with Him. 

There are two songs I want to share by Jonathan David Helser. My parents are good friends with Jonathan and his wife Melissa. Last time they were together Jonathan gave them a stack of CDs and my dad hooked me up with a few of them - a couple others of theirs I already had. I have been so ministered to by their worship. Jonathan truly has a heart of David. He to me is like Kevin Prosch is to me... so pure hearted that the anointing when you listen to their worship is so strong, you feel God's presence right away. 

The first is called "Abba"... Abba means "Daddy" in Hebrew. Listen to the words and let the music minister to you. You don't have to do anything - you can just rest.

And next, listen to this song called 'Intimacy'. I'll post the lyrics for you. The chorus is basically "I was made, I was made for intimacy". That's all there is. That's all he wants with us. To know him and be known. There is rest in that; no striving, just to know one another. What could be better than that?

These hands you made to hold yours, my love

These feet you shaped to walk with you in our garden

These eyes you placed to gaze upon your face

These lips you formed to kiss my beloved

I was made, I was made for intimacy

These ears you made to hear your rhythm of love

This voice you placed to sing songs of grace

This hair you wove, you numbered every strand

This gaze you love, it captures you with a glance

Intimacy    is what I need, intimacy    is calling me

Love B